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Sorry.
Tuesday, 23 June 2015
I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry. I didn’t mean anything I said. Not a single word. Maybe what I said is true, maybe it’s not but know I loved you, I really really loved you. I loved you through everything. I loved you when I was fourteen. I loved you when I was fifteen. I loved you when I was sixteen. I’m almost seventeen and I still love you. I knew what I was doing, I knew what I was getting myself into. I was completely absorbed in you. You had my attention, my affection, my love, my heart & soul, my everything. I’ve known what love is for about 698 days. Love is you and I. It’s always been you and me against the world. Our relationship is unforgettable, our connection, undeniable. We’ve had our share of hardships and doubts but I think that’s what makes us so perfect. Despite everything we’ve done, everything we’ve gone through, we still love and care about each other. And I think that’s what love is. Love is never giving up. You never gave up on me and I’m so sorry I gave up on us. It’s been two years, for some that’s a very short amount of time, but for me it’s felt like a lifetime, but in a good way. I feel as if I’ve known you forever. I don’t remember what life was like without you in and quite frankly, I don’t want to. You stuck with me through some of my darkest times, you always told me it was going to be okay and it was. But I don’t think it will be this time. Our love was like a fairytale. You were my prince. Sometimes you were a damsel in distress and I’d save you, and sometimes you had to save me too. You were my escape, my safe place, my little piece of heaven on Earth. When I had you, I had everything. You were my everything. You are my everything. I wish we could’ve lasted longer. I wish our forever was longer than the 696 days before I opened my mouth and ruined everything. I don’t regret you one bit. You gave me the world, you were my world. I wish things were different. Just know I love you, okay? I love you with every atom in my body. You are so perfect. Never forget that, never forget me.

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