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Just for this night.
Monday, 19 October 2015
I always wanted to be candidly honest, and straight forward about living with a mental illness. I felt that I would be cheating my loyal, and those who appreciate my work, if I painted this perfect version of myself, when in reality, sometimes I melt too. I am only human. The truth is, yes I am on a journey toward strength, and yes each day I am one step closer to loving myself, but on the way the road is so very difficult, and every now and then, I do reach a speed bump. Every now and again the world gets too much, and my thoughts are blackened by depression and low self esteem. These are the very things that fight with me, even in my sleep. and yes, it is perfectly fine not to always get it right. Maybe I will just let myself be sad, just for this night.

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